toujours_impur | (for Hex and Remus) Pull or Push?

Sirius was in a pretty good mood. He had suggested they go down to the pub for dinner tonight, and had offered to buy the first round while Remus found them somewhere to sit, which is why he went directly to the bar to grab a pair of pints. To no one's surprise, however, he got distracted from his mission by the incredibly fit bloke sitting at the bar. He looked the man over from head to toe and gave him a warm, inviting smile out of sheer habit. He wasn't going to pull while he was out with Remus, honest. ...Not again anyway. Probably. Possibly. Hell, Moony would understand if he did, right?

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Sirius chuckled faintly at Remus' words, because yes, jealousy looked just the same on him as on anyone else, Moony.

"I know we do," he admitted, raising his head and resting his chin on his knees. The closeness they had, atypical of even best friends but that had worked for them for years, that was what had made being in love with his best friend all this time bearable. "That's not what I mean," he murmured, but he wasn't sure how to put what he did mean into words.

He swallowed hard, wanting desperately to believe those reassurances. "But I wasn't your boyfriend through all of that," he said softly, then laughed, an almost-bitter sound. "I don't even know if I can be a proper boyfriend." He wanted this, wanted Remus, wanted a relationship with him, he'd be mad not to, but the thought of being with only Remus? It would be...challenging to break years of habit of following his dick wherever it led him. Which was part of what he was afraid of.

Oh, and that drew out a rich, fond laugh from Remus' throat, chest shaking with the effort of it before it subsided, bringing a hand up to his mouth to stifle what remained.

"Pads, what makes you think I'd want a proper boyfriend? Or girlfriend, for that matter." Remus shrugged his shoulders, eyes a bit wide, inviting the question. "I'm sick half the month and hyper the other half. I don't need someone proper, I need someone who knows me, who understands. That's definitely you."

Breathing in through his nose, Remus sagged a little against the couch. "Look, I'm not expecting traditional and all the trimmings. Really." He'd never expected to make it to school, let alone get any friends. The prospect of some sort of regular partner (whatever that was) boggled the mind, and bored him to tears. "I just want us. That's all. And I wouldn't...I wouldn't try to limit you, you know," he added, softly, because part of him felt bad for admitting it. If Sirius worried about being proper, well, that wasn't exactly it.

Sirius fidgeted a little, his chest tight and aching with the cacophony of emotions swirling through him. He slowly unfolded, body pivoting until his feet hit the floor, and then he got to his feet, closing the distance between them to sit next to Remus, his movements almost timid. "I want us too," he whispered, curling up against him and resting his head on Remus' shoulder. "I just don't want to disappoint you." He'd done that more than enough as it was, he figured.

Remus curled an arm around his shoulders to keep him close. He'd done it before, but it felt more right, somehow. Maybe it was the alcohol.

"You will," he assured Sirius, craning a little to plant a kiss on Sirius' forehead, after brushing a lock of hair away. "And I'll still be a grumpy old bastard from time to time, and make you terribly mad. But that's how things are, m'dear. That's what relationships are like."

James and Lily had hardly gotten along every waking moment of every single day. To Remus, Sirius' fears were understandable....if a little silly. Sirius certainly couldn't expect perfection from a battered young werewolf, so there was no reason for Remus to expect it from him.

"How reassuring," Sirius muttered, moving a hand to rest over Remus' heart. He still wasn't entirely sure this was a good idea, but fuck it. He'd wanted it for years. Now that Remus had finally realized that, they couldn't go on pretending either way, so he may as well grab what he'd been aching for for so long.

"Well, I suppose my answer is yes then," he said quietly, tilting his head back to look at Remus, and then added with a faint smile. "Honestly, I'd try be anything you asked me to be, so your date is a pretty simple one to fulfill."

His own hand slipped to cover Sirius' while the other man spoke, pleased for the contact.

"I know the way you are with dates," Remus murmured, amused, and with absolutely no judgement in his eyes. He pulled back a little to look Sirius over with something that might have been claiming, his eyes lidded. "Are you going to wait to have it off with me until after the first date?" he wondered, biting his lip as he shifted his hand so his fingers could stroke at Sirius' wrist, push his sleeve down just to get at more of that lovely skin. He didn't really expect much protest, even as he leaned closer, all but pushing Sirius back against the couch, taking a dominant position. "Because I'm rather certain I've been waiting long enough for a proper snog."

He kissed Sirius then, lips pressed to lips, gentle but insistent. It was rather unlike their practice kisses, where Sirius had usually taken the lead. Remus was making it clear this would be on his terms.

Sirius snorted at the question. "Not bloody likely," he growled, but he didn't get a chance to say much more even if he'd wanted to, because Remus was kissing him, their first real kiss, and he wouldn't have stopped it for anything. He was quite happy to let Remus take the lead, but he was certainly not a passive participant, twining his arms round Remus' neck as he returned the kiss with a contented rumble in his chest, holding him close and feeling no need to hurry things along. After so many years of waiting, what was a few more minutes, after all? He wanted to savor this, to remember every moment.

"Oh, someone thinks they're setting the rules," Remus chuckled, deep in his chest, after he'd kissed Sirius as thoroughly as he knew how, all leisurely movements of tongue and lips. He pressed himself even closer, letting Sirius get a feel for how hard he was, crotch sliding against crotch, before he pushed himself back upright and scooted back down the couch.

He waved with his hand, taking Sirius in in the gesture. "C'mon then, love. Strip. I'm not wasting time fiddling with your buttons."

Sirius moaned softly, reaching for Remus as he pulled away, then getting to his feet at Remus' order, running a finger along the collar of his shirt. He arched an eyebrow, smiling almost coyly, and asked, "Fast or slow?"

Remus arched an eyebrow in turn, and looked something close to wryly amused, a hand moving to wipe over his mouth and chin as he thought about Sirius' question. "...Well, slow will get me sodding off to the bedroom while you mess about with your clothes, and fast will get me annoyed I wasn't able to enjoy the view. So," Remus declared, leaning back on the other arm of the couch, toeing off his shoes to let them clatter to the floor, and rather obviously started to rub his hard-on through his trousers, "why don't you pick something in between and see how much it pleases me?" It was probably one of the few times Remus would have agreed his grin was indeed wolfish and hungry.

Sirius couldn't help the shiver that ran through him, at Remus' voice, at the look in his eyes, at...all of it. This was a side of his best friend he'd never seen before, and...well, to be quite honest, it made him a little weak in the knees. He was something of a sexual chameleon, his tastes in the bedroom rather flexible depending on who he was with, but the feeling that was coming over him as Remus asserted dominance of the situation...that was new. And exhilarating.

His tongue flicked out to wet his lips, his gaze dropping to Remus hand no matter how many times he tried to drag it away, and he crossed his arms and grabbed the hem of his shirt, leisurely lifting it and pulling it over his head, discarding it to the floor when he was done. His fingertips trailed down the centre of his chest, over his abdomen, until he reached the low-slung waist of his trousers, popping the button and undoing the zip one-handed. Now his eyes were on Remus' face, wanting, needing to see if he was indeed pleasing him.

And Remus was pleased: indeed, very pleased. He showed that in the way his palm slowly, leisurely moved over his crotch, enough to keep that burning ache steeped. He showed it in the way his eyes never left Sirius' body, exploring, drinking in that sight in a way he'd never managed in furtive glances in bedrooms or dorms or showers. He showed it in the way he licked his upper lip as Sirius' hand trailed down his taut stomach and popped upon that button, making him emit a soft needy rumble from the back of his throat. And he showed it in the way he smiled at Sirius at the end, like he was the best and brightest student, like Remus couldn't ever be more proud.

Remus tugged his coat off, unbuttoned his top two buttons (unheard of!), and moved fast to slide a hand right down the open front of Sirius' trousers, claiming that cock like it was his own. There was no hesitation in his touch, nothing less than a full-blooded assertion of ownership. "...You've always been so damned handsome, you know?" he murmured, eyes scanning Sirius' face, instinctively searching for a reaction, for any sign this might be going too far. He kept one hand on the side of the couch, arched over Sirius like he was looming. "Damned pretty, really. And now you're all mine, aren't you, m'dear? So wonderful, and all for me." He gave Sirius' cock an experimental tug.

Sirius exhaled in a rush, hips rocking at that sure, confident touch. It was utterly unexpected; all of this was, and it was one hell of a turn-on. "I've always been yours, darling. You've just needed to claim me," he retorted, his tone cocky and playful despite the fact that he was rendered a bit breathless at the moment.

"Oh, typical, making me do all the work..." Remus flashed a brief wry grin at him, that hand still remarkably sure on Sirius' cock. Remus didn't think he'd been more sure of anything in his life, frankly. "And making you sound like you're something stashed in a Gringotts' vault when you're infinitely more precious." He treated Sirius to a hard kiss as punctuation, all locking teeth and searching tongue, then removed his hand and slowly got off the couch, refusing to break eye contact.

Licking across his palm, he tasted and smelled Sirius there, nostrils flaring. "Chop chop then. Show me what a lovely slut you are and walk naked to the bed, then wait for me. I want to see what I own."

Sirius swallowed, trying to get rid of that annoying ache of emotion in his throat at Remus' words, the way he was looking at him. Dream come true or not, this was sex, and sex he was good at.

So he smirked and shimmied out of his tight trousers, leaving them in a pool on the floor as he stepped free and bent to remove his socks, making sure to turn away so that Remus would get a a lovely view of his arse while he did. Straightening, he flashed that cocky grin that he was so known for and sauntered toward the bedroom, sitting on the edge of the bed and leaning back on his hands as he waited for Remus to join him.

Sirius was naked. Of course Sirius was naked. It was too familiar to even draw a chuckle out of him: and yet it made the moment oddly alien, because somehow, he'd never really thought that Pads would be naked for him.

Taking a few moments to gather himself, Remus undressed in the living room, blithely unconcerned if there were any peeping toms (and if there were, they'd have to be on a bloody big crane to gaze into the 14th floor), leaving his trousers in a pool alongside Sirius', then undid the cuffs of his shirt, the hem still dangling about his waist as he padded, half-clad in shirt and briefs as he paused in the doorway to his bedroom. The light from the hallway cast him in shadow, but Remus was far too busy admiring the artwork on his bed to really care.

"Definitely a lovely slut," Remus murmured, a little arch, a little deep, and dragging it out. Not undressing any further than shirt and briefs, he undid the buttons of the shirt in an agonisingly slowly way that he knew would make Padfoot impatient, and approached Sirius to squat at the foot of the bed, the backs of his hands trailing up the inside of Sirius' legs, moving up and close with them until he could gaze into Sirius' eyes for a moment, chest barely an inch away from Sirius' chest, and then Remus smiled before leaning in to kiss him. One hand moved to tangle fingers into Sirius' hair, a deft, controlling touch, allowing him to take charge of the kiss. "So responsive, aren't you, love?"

"Mhmm," Sirius hummed into the kiss, his hips moving in a slow, leisurely roll as Remus' fingers moved over his skin, otherwise pliant and eager beneath Remus' mouth, his hands.

He waited for a break in the kiss to whisper, "I'm whatever you want me to be, Moony. I always have been."